You use your voice every day. You talk. You might sing in the shower. You may even yell at someone for stepping on your foot or pushing you into a wall. but you use you voice. It is part of who you are.
A few months ago, I noticed that mine had gone into hiding. Hibernation. I won’t go into detail but if my face is any reflection of me as a person, and my life then…zoinks! But, as things do – I am healing. Yeah, I fell off of a swing and landed on my face. SOBER.
During this time of spring and beer garden’s and friends – I have been keeping to myself. I am not trying to be anti social, but I was on a self imposed schedule. A long time ago I read an amazing book – Steven King On Writing – It was really helpful in me deciding that i really did want to be a writer. He gave really great advice: Read…A LOT! and write EVERY DAY. So that, my friends, is what i have been doing. Working at the bookstore has helped enormously with the reading. I have access to tons of books and I am burning through them, reading all types of books and styles of writing.
As for mister King’s second piece of advice – write every day – I have been. For the past couple of months I have been writing. A lot. I have begun to write poetry again. As I recall, I used to be pretty good at it. I had won some prizes back in my college days and had two pieces published. But I just stopped. Got lazy or defeated. So, I have been trying to find that voice again. I have also been working on a short story. And, much like the poetry, my voice took a sabbatical. It has not been easy. I have been writing this blog for so long that my style has really become honed – for a memoir. So, I have been working really hard to get back into fiction. And, I am almost done. I have two publications that I want to submit the story too once it is complete. If I can bear it, I will post it for you all to read. And, I have already submitted some of my poetry. I’ll keep you up to date on that also.
Now, some of you also know that I fancy myself a good singer. In fact, I get asked at least once a week why I am “wasting” myself singing Karaoke in Prague. “You should be on Broadway!” “I would buy your album if you had one.” And so forth. Well folks, I’ll tell ya. I moved from Prague once before and I came right back. I like it here. I had a lot of reasons for coming back not the least of wich was I really missed my karaoke gig at The Blind Eye. Yes. I am a dork, and I like Karaoke. I get called The Karaoke Queen often, and I don’t mind.
But, as with my writing, I do have some dreams attached to my voice. Not just my literary voice either – my god given Mezzo Sopranno. My belt. My pipes. You get it. As most of you know, I am from L.A., land of the hopeful waiters. That is one of the reasons I left. But, I do have more than a few contacts in the BIZ, and I have contacted them. Networking. Yep. In my isolation I have been attempting to put together a tiny little demo for myself. Next time I visit L.A. I am hoping to record a few songs. From there…? We’ll see. I have contacts here in Prague as well and maybe I can get myself some little gigs.
This is the first I have mentioned ANY of this to ANYONE. After my failure with NANoWRIMO, I decided to keep my goals on the down low. Most people are supportive, but sometimes you come across people that disrupt or disarm you, and I didn’t want to take that chance. The people closest to me had no idea. In hind sight I should have confided in someone. But, “…the benefit of hindsight and the clarity that accompanies misfortune and grief…”
So, that’s what I have been up too. I now ask for your support and help. It has come to my attention recently that I need to share more. So from now on, think of me as Gypsy Rose Lee, and feel free to tell me to use my voice – all of them – and yell as loud as you can
“SING OUT LOUISE!”
I’ll do my best to comply.